find me

Find me in the place where I want to run

Where my feet are poised

To take off 

Because they refuse to be planted

Planted upon the plan,

The plan my own strength demands

Find me in this place where my soul refuses to be comforted

My feet have slipped

My eyes pour forth tears

To the one who promises to pour them out again with purpose

When the storm has stilled and the waves are calm

When we've crossed to the other side, safely,

Known by your care when we feared you didn't care

Hidden in your power when we didn't realize its breadth in us

Carried by your grace that doesn't rebuke us but the circumstances

That cause us to tremble towards you instead of ourselves

And you question our faithlessness as we question yours

Doubts easily stirred by the storm

Find me in this place--where the storm seems too much

And I can't see the shore

Which way will we turn

As the storm rips the rudder and the sails apart?

Oh Lord, only you know. 

Will these dry bones live here, now

Even in this valley of dry bones?

Oh Lord, only you know. 

What dreams will you now unfold 

By the unraveling of old hopes?

Oh Lord, only you know. 

Find me in this place

Where the sacred meets the scared

And faith, in grace, reaches out to take fear's hands in hers

Where everything is stripped away,

All the facts and strategies

All the things that once defined me,

Until nothing is left but you & me

On this blessed balcony

Where I keep meeting you

And where words are the biggest thing that bind me to you these days

Oh, Lord, let them not be yet another idol

That I grapple and cling for in the storm

For they cannot hold, their fickle frames fleeting as easily as the sails above me 

But you, fast asleep in the stern,

Invite me to rest in you as my one, sure mainstay

The one with the power to calm and to quiet

Not just the storm by a word

But my soul with a song, 

A love song that will find me wherever I run

A divine melody that will keep me

Wherever I go

A sweet tune that will take me

Whenever you want me

And that's what I want,

More than anything

So find me here, now 

in this place

So that you can take me here, now

To the next place

I'm staying with you, my one refuge

Until the storm passes over

Until the furnace is opened

Until the gold is refined

And wisdom is learned

I'm weary, o God. 

I'm so weary. 

But by wisdom & waiting,

You renew my strength in you. 

You restore my joy in you. 

You redeem my life in you. 

Find me here, now,

Father, with these fresh tears and fears alike

And capture me into your hands,

Gather me under your wings,

Hold me in your arms,

Until I'm ready to move again

From this place, 

And from all the old ways,

I trust you to move me again,

Further up and further in,

Here, now.