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I will not turn back.

You know when we are most vulnerable? When our walls tumble faster and with more ferocity? In excitement. In extravagance. In abundance.  It's when you are stepping into the place of abundance that the enemy's whisper abounds: turn back. turn back NOW. These are his taunts, his fears, his insecurities, that have no where else to show up, than in the heart & mind of a child who has all of the rights to God that he never had.  Satan doesn't like that because it is how God wants us to live. That's what God wants for us: ABUNDANCE.  As someone who passed through a season of barrenness and is on the cusp of a valley of abundance, I can say that I have never felt the enemy's attack more closely or more deeply than right here. In anxiousness for the next season, full of hope. Last year, his attacks were superficial. Now the spiritual warfare is closer than ever before. Jesus, help me.  I've been getting a lot of what most would term "good news&quo

hope that does not lose heart

Today I had some Jesus time on the quad, with shade keeping me cool enough to quiet my mind and heart and focus on listening. Yet my voice interrupted with destructive, entangling roots of self-centered lies. But God. Those timeless words ring true for me today. This is what He did, the opposite of what I was doing.  The breeze picked up, playing with the strands of hair around my face. A subtle reminder of His presence. With it came the Spirit's challenge to lay down my concerns and convictions at the feet of Jesus.  Oh Jesus, thank you for being right here, right now, for challenging me to reject all the lies and deception that seek to chain me up in self-destructive thoughts, when you long & delight to build me up by your great love that says that I do not have to be good-enough, smart-enough, pretty-enough, loved-enough by mere humans, filled by others and a good-filler of others. All of that is loss, not gain. All of that is rubbish, not treasure. Daddy, help